I hate waiting, though! I want to get everything going NOW. But I can't. Ah, it's going to be one of the best experiences in my life, I think. And then, I hope I can get an internship. And what I really want is to get a job in Japan and live there for a couple years to continue improving my proficiency. I have a meeting with someone from the Career Services place this coming Tuesday, so maybe she'll be able to give me some more absolute answers to my career questions.
I'm worried about being able to pay for it and having that extra $2000 per semester (or so) for all those extra things, including meals (especially if you're in the dorms). A part of me is concerned I won't even get into the program. I'm especially worried about the plane ride, and that entire process of actually boarding the plane...Is that silly or what? And then, I'm concerned that I won't be able to change myself enough to be more social and not so awkward so I can make friends, or that I won't actually be as good at languages as I thought, or that I'll get lost somehow when we first get there, and just tons of other things. That's probably the source of all my problems: I worry about EVERYTHING, which means I overthink everything. That includes everything from what I should say when talking to people to the smallest problems in class.
Anyway, despite all this, I'm so incredibly excited! I'm hoping it'll be a bit of a turning point in my life, and that I can really make some necessary changes to myself and become more like the person I want to be. Fingers crossed...
Well, I may not post again until I have some more substantial news.